This is the Loundev. I'm back, back for another sound, and you know what? I'm feeling it, man.
I'm feeling this, I'm feeling this urge, feeling this urge to hit record on my phone and,
and spout off into the microphone, into the phone that has a microphone and a camera.
I feel the urge to spout off into this device and to post it on the internet.
It's kind of a weird thing to think about it. I'm recording myself, speaking about random things.
I have an urge to do it, can't really explain why,
but I'll try. Let's try. So why the hell am I doing this? Let's try to explain it.
Let's explore it a little bit. So this urge of mine to create a podcast, it keeps coming back
up. It keeps resurfacing. And then I start it. I start, I start the podcast. I can't tell you how
many fucking podcasts I've started and gave up on, but I'm somewhat determined not to give up
on this one. It's gone. It's gone quite a ways. It's gone quite a bit further than previous
incarnations of this experiment, I would say, in that I've made, I think this is episode number
eight. I certainly have not done eight episodes before. You know, what usually happens is, uh,
I, I start saying stuff that I don't want to be out there and on the internet.
And, uh, and then I try to like stay on some rails. I try to stay on rails. I try to be like,
I try to be authentic while giving you content that's not too revealing or that's like not
too personal, which is really hard to do.
And I have this idea in my head that this stuff that I'm putting out there is not
interesting to anybody. And not only is it not interesting, it kind of like,
it exposes something about me to the world that I don't really want people to see.
So, like, it's nothing but downside, really.
But yet this urge to create a podcast keeps coming back up. I need to, I need to look at it
seriously and say, what is this? You gotta, um, you gotta deal with this, like, this thing that
this thing that keeps coming back up. And, uh, I guess to deal with it, I have to create this
podcast. It's like, I'm kind of obligated. It's almost like, uh, it's almost like a gun's being
pointed at my head and somebody saying, create a podcast. I'll shoot you. You got to release
an episode two times a day during the work week. When you're in your car, I'll shoot you.
It's kind of like that. It's kind of like what this podcast is like to me right now.
I feel like I need to do it to get that freaking urge out of my freaking system.
Will it become something? I don't know. I am hesitant to like, to tell people about it.
I'll be like, oh yeah, I'm just, I'm doing a podcast. I'm like, oh really? I'll like change
the subject. Um, it's like this non-committal thing that I'm, it's like, I want to do it,
but I don't want to commit to it.
I've kind of mentioned it to people that are close to me, you know,
but I'm not really pushing it on anybody
and I'm not really promoting it very aggressively at all.
Um, just very non-committal cause I know I'll probably freaking just give up on it.
Like I've done so many times in the past, but you never know. Maybe this is the one.
Subscribe, subscribe and you never know. Maybe I'll keep doing it. I also have this like idea
in my head that, uh, it's not necessarily all about like the quality of the content.
It's also about the consistency.
Like people want to rely on something. They want somebody they can rely on to like give
them a consistent product to hold their hand through the workday or whatever, you know,
like a heartbeat. You know, my favorite radio hosts were like that. They'd have up and up,
up days and down days, but you could rely on them to produce a product. You know,
maybe that's what this, this Sima daily podcast can be for somebody someday.
Just like a, an anchor in their life,
which is why I keep flailing about trying to get people to give me some feedback at
bretts.appslashfeedback. I don't see what happens. Yeah. So this fucking urge, this,
this fucking urge that won't quit this urge to podcast.
I told my wife about it the other day. I was like, think about doing this podcast, right? Like, uh,
I just record myself in the car.
It was like, oh, it's stupid idea. Right. And she's like, no, it's not stupid. You know,
she's so supportive of all my stupid ideas. See, I have a.
I've mentioned it in previous episodes, I call it the devil on my shoulder.
I certainly have a little devil on my shoulder. I am my own worst critic.
So maybe this thing that I'm doing, maybe it doesn't suck.
I just need to give it a chance.
Give it a chance to bloom a little bit and to flower.
And not expect results right away.
Obviously, there won't be immediate results.
You've got to be super patient with this kind of stuff.
Especially since I'm being so noncommittal about it and not advertising it anywhere.
Low expectations, man. Low expectations.
You've got to have low expectations so you're not disappointed.
That's kind of the way these things work.
This is so sketchy.
We've got some sketchy traffic situation here.
I just picked up some Habit Burger for the family.
I've got a bunch of burgers in my frunk.
And I'm heading home to chow down on some burgers, my friends.
What are you doing tonight?
Are you slurping down some burgers?
That's what I'm doing.
How do you like Habit? Have you ever had Habit?
I think it's only a California chain, California burger chain.
Habit Burger. Good spot, man.
Good service. They're always friendly.
Decent prices. Good stuff.
Kids love it.
Yeah. I can't tell you how many takes I've done today.
I think I've recorded maybe half a dozen fricking segments.
And then I keep listening back to them like,
God, you're being so fucking pedestrian.
This cannot work unless I put out some good shit.
It can't just be me talking about indie development
and this fucking filtered nonsense.
No, none of that. It's got to be honest.
Or it's just fucking boring.
Jesus Christ.
Sorry for all the freaking curse words, man.
If you're offended by such things, I apologize.
I hope you stick around nonetheless and try to find the,
try to separate the wheat from the chaff, as they say.
But I don't know. I'm just like, I'm dragging this one out.
This wasn't even supposed to be,
I wasn't even supposed to have another segment.
But here we are with another segment.
And then maybe they're going to be all out of order today. I don't know.
Until next time.